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I still cry every day. Yes, even when Mia is looking and feeling so well.

This thing just scares the life out of me. The doctors are pretty sure that we haven't heard the last of this yet. So she may need more chemo - even stronger and more toxic than the last. This may put her at more risk for life-threatening infection. The chemo medicines also have side effects from neuromuscular to liver and heart toxicity. They also can increase the risk of future cancers.

The radiation from all of her scans and x-rays and from her treatment can also cause cancer. In addition, her radiation treatment has obliterated her pituitary and thyroid glands. She will need treatment for these the rest of her life. She may also be infertile.

Looking more to the present, we still wait and hope and pray that her scans don't show anything new. I can't imagine life without her.

My prayers each day are the same. Save my baby - Please God, save my baby.